Fields of Ambivalence

I wonder,
how long I can balance
                 precariously
on the edge of reason.

On the edge of what should be
                 and what is.

In the war of aspirations
versus reality
                 does ambition ever win?

How long can I justify
blind perseverance
                 of this love drowned heart?

How long can I go on
                 walking headstrong
into the gusting winds
                 of uncertainty?

How long can a heart
                 weave 
through the landmines
of ambivalence
                 embedded
in another man’s soul?

(January 17, 2012)